Yes, Going Hemingway

I am not at the top of the mountain. I speak of positive steps based on the aid they give. Any encouragement and a pointing of the way is for me as well as for you. Perhaps it is only for me. I am sad and crying and thinking too hard of the life that I have lived. Not that I made mistake after mistake. I did not. Letting go of what was. Of family which is still alive. Of feces that is too tough to deal with.

Perhaps it is time for me to face the facts. I have nothing to teach. Nowhere to point to. Nothing to say. Yes, Ernest. I respect you.

Try and Try Again

Our injury changes a lot. Behaviors that we become to know as, "Us" have disappeared for many of us. From sleep patterns to physical challenges. Food no longer seems the same. A lack of enjoyment. Reading is now similar to mowing the lawn on a hot, hot day. Guitars? Sell. Some things I did for better health and mind, meditation and varying exercise? Where did they go?

As I spoke about meditation on my last post, I haven't thrown in the towel. Sometimes having a group helps. The other point of importance that I left unsaid is exercise.

With meditation I hope to begin as a beginner. Exercise, the same. Both with patience. A small sitting each day. No judgement. No expectation.

My exercise has grown little beyond my walk around my roadway. All woods. I enjoy it. When I break off to climb the hill to home through the woods it's good to see tracks and scat, etc... MY plan there is to keep it up no matter what the weather. Work on increasing speed. Maybe a short run ( fifteen yards?) thrown in.

Those two little practices are highly rated for acting as TBI improvement. Aerobic based exercise is just what the brain needs. Equal to the benefits of sleep. The meditation will help calm our thinking into being in the reality of life. Being stuck in always looking backward while struggling with what the future may be, accomplishes nothing but worry, anger and depression.

I'm encouraging myself on while hoping that you as well will not just lie where you do. We should always work on growth. If my focus remains on all the things I used to do and used to enjoy is like missing my childhood. Remember. Have a good laugh or a warmth on heart but it is over. Only a memory.

Simplicity

Many of us follow our racing thoughts and dance with our dancing emotions. It's a rough way to live. Not that many people don't already live this way but after a TBI it kicks into high gear. My previous years have heightened my awareness of the unreality of being stuck in our thoughts and emotions focusing on yesterday and tomorrow. From years of meditation, and yes, TBI has helped squash that practice as well. But all things begin small and my practice of simplicity will begin with two items.

Two items to practice.

1) Practice. 

Start there. Think on what practice is saying. Patience. Non judgement. One day, one moment at a time. Never make goals out of it. Just do it. 

Just   Do   It!

Practice what? 

Start Here.

If anyone joins me..... Yes, me too, we can practice more which is known to be beneficial for us trying to strengthen and find balance. Starting here we can help calm the frenzy.

With practice....